Ok... time for an update... yeah... I don't have much to say... I hate life... I hate living here... I want my mom to die... I love Laura... I love her more than I love anything. She just cares about me as a friend. I'm dealing with it I guess... i'm back to conditioning myself for the army. I'm trying to get a job. I can't... no one wants me. Um... I love Laura (I know I said it already)... oh... and yeah... I love Laura...