I really love Madison. I do. I upset her very much though. Simple things hurt her. I try my hardest not to hurt her... I try my hardest to be her deffinition of normal. I try to please her... but somehow... I always fail... and she gets upset. I believe tonight I have terribly upset her. She told me she never wishes to speak with me again, and she hung up on me. I just don't know what to do damnit. This is the first person that has actually loved me for a change... and what do I do... I find a way to fuck it up. I'm starting to hate life more and more daily. Oh well... peace...