I think i'm gonna fuckin kill myself... since last nite i've been smelling radiator fluid... so today the radiator hose has a big ass hole in it. Now my right read brake drum is fucked up to... the tires are about to go... engine keeps dying... right front ball joint is clicking again... without my car I can't go to work. Without work I can't fix my car or get a dececent one. I just fucking hate life... I fucking hate it... all of it... I really just want to fucking die and all of this to just end... all of this stupid fucking bullshit. Whatever... so my fucking two days off are fucking ruined... today was cause all I fuckin did was drive devin aroud to jill's work... to her house... back to her work.. to robert's... to jills some more... to his house... and now him and jill are downstairs all over each other like they were at his house... and my fuckin car is in the driveway not in shape to fucking drive... I'm single... all I get to hear is about how happy people are as couples, how they do all kinds of shit together as couples, and all that fucking bullshit... just fuck life... fuck all of it...