It's almost been a year since I fucked Nikki over. *cries* I wish I wouldn't have done that... I really wish I wouldn't have... oh well... I'm not trying to sound suicidal, because I'm not... but if I don't seem like me anymore its cause I dont' have anything else to give or to fight with... I have no reason to live... so I'm just gonna hope things get better soon... I've given every last ounce I had to give... now its time for life to give back to me... cause I just can't keep doin it. *Grumbles* well I guess I"m going to bed.