Madison just isn't getting the picture... No matter how mean I am to her... no matter how much I avoid her... No matter how much I ignore her... she just doesn't the picture. She's a great person... but not just the person for me. She feels the same way about me that I did about Laura... Laura... I know how you felt with me constantly bugging you... and all I can say is I'm so sorry I made you go through that... its hell... I can't hurt Madison and tell her. I can't hurt her and keep being like this to her either... I dunno... I'll figure out some way to deal with it... Anyway... Peace....