Mark. A. Mercer
Dad, it's been 7 years and 5 days now... since you died. I thought that it would get easier every year... as I adjusted to you being gone. However it only seems to be getting worse, as I have said in the past, because you aren't here for so much, I'm starting to make my life better, I have an Associates Degree, I have a security clearence and a Federal job... I plan on going back for my bachelors and pursuing a job with the State Police and Ultimately the USSS or the FBI. I want to apologize, apologize for 7 years and 5 days ago today. When I held your hand, and held you as you died. I apologize for making you fight on, for not wanting you to leave us. You could hear my voice, and as long as I talked your heart fought to stay beating because you didn't want death to take you. Finally I stopped talking to let you go, I'm sorry for stopping talking, Maybe my voice was helping you, maybe without it there you were afraid. I guess I won't find out for quite some time, untill I make it to heaven. I can only hope that you met God and weren't afraid, or sorry. 7 days to go and I'll be 20... I drive your truck... Fishing Truck #2... oh man you should have seen this truck I had a little bit ago... it was a 67 chevy c-10 and was the factory red paint and it had faded to this really neat orange. You held on as long as you could, fought to stay... fought so you wouldn't have to leave me... Never with words can I thank you for lasting as long as you did... for the longest time I was upset but you made a sacrifice of great pain to stay as long as you could. There for a while I worked at the cemetary and got to visit you every day... last time I visited you mom's boyfriend's mother had passed away and is burried just a row or two away from you. I'm moving out on my own come May... Oh!!! I'm a mason!!! However neither you or Joe were there for my Entered Apprentice Degree, I am supposed to do my fellowcraft the day after my birthday but I just cant seem to get the stuff memorized so I don't think it is going to happen then. Mila still misses you sometimes I think... she is more spoiled than ever she won't even go out if the grass is wet and she has awful allergies (some hunting dog she turned out to be). Joe isn't doing to well, he's been real sick on and off the past few years he may be joining you and his wife soon so keep an eye out for him. I miss you dad, and I love you...
The lord is my Shepherd I shall not want
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures
He leadeth me beside the still waters
He restoreth my soul
He Guideth me in straight paths for his name sake
Yea though I walk in the valley of the shadow of death I shall fear
no evil
For thou art with me Thy rod and thy staff they comfort me
Thou preparest a table before me in the presents of my enemies Thou
has anointed
my head with oil, my cup runeth over
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life and
I shall
live in the house of the lord for ever and ever
(a note for lj'rs... if you disrespect my father and his memory with idiotic and/or rude comments as some have you done in the past, not only will I delete the comment but I will kill you.)